Crying over her again. This time in class. Its a good thing i have no friends in here...


I really need to block her screen names from my computer. I can't stand this.

Reading chapter one at 11 at night: Hated it.

Read chapter two at 8... It was aight.

Reading chapter one at 11 AGAIN, only this time I wasn't moody, OBSESSED.


Jack x Ralph OTP.



P.S. - Still miss you.

I had a dream last night...

She was talking to me again. We were having fun. Laughing, being snooty at each other, kidding around...


Then I woke up. And I cried.


Goddamn I hate this.

I feel sick to my stomach. My throat is burning, and I want to cry.

The worst part of it all? Its all over her.

Over my ex-girlfriend.




I thought I was past the rebound stage of my break up, but my love life has been so topsy turvey lately. And I guess I just feel like... With her... There wasn't any drama until the break up. We never really fought... Until I had to open my big mouth and ruin it all.


I want to talk to her so badly. I hate that I've lost all my chances. I know I don't deserve another one but I'm craving it like a cigarette. I haven't talked to her in like... a year. Yet she crosses my mind almost every day.


Can anybody help me, or give me some form of advice? And no, apologizing is out of the question. She refuses to talk to me either then telling me to leave her alone.

Dear humanity,


I have lost faith in you.

With over-flowing despise,
Emily


P.S. - I pity Robert Pattinson. He's a moron for taking that role.